Listen to your Heart....

Another year goes by, another birthday looming around. Time to rewind another year that passed by and reminisce and plan for the feature. Years go by, but i never felt a big change in me. Ask my school friends they would say am still the same (not physically though). Some say its great not to change and be yourself, but the way i see my life is just stale and stagnant. Mankind thinks about growth by virtue of the money he earns or the big career move he makes. Some even say the car a person owns says his change in life. But ask me i would answer, Bullshit!! God gave me this wonderful family and friend circle who do nothing but support me. I am grateful to them to the core, but the point is as a person i dont see or feel any change in me after all those years.

It is an evasive mechanism my mind takes to be lazy and loom around the present. My dad used to called me an escapist, because i never ever liked responsibilities. I was happy to fool around and show off. Now you might think why i have to think about it now?? I feel kinda bored at this colloquial speeches, and wanna really do something different. But am confused to say the least, as the fun am having is not less either for a common person like me.

Last week one of my friend said on phone "There are certain moments in life where you gotta be selfish and just listen to your heart..." I could relate to this one easily, as every decision in my life ever had been from my brains rather than my heart. A song says, "My heart said Yes but mind said No". ...yeah guess what i went for 'no'. I could relate to what he said, there was a moment long time back where we seperated saying "In another life may be.." it was a mindful thought. Had i listened to my heart, i may not be writing this blog. I may not have escaped (or ran away) to where i am now. May be i would not have been an emotional wreck. May be life would not have been stale...searching for milestones....

Mind is a big cauldron of emotions where everything just burns and burns and bursts out at the most inappropriate moments of life. And my jovial mind is tortured by this so called remembrances. I regret at certain things, but i am not gonna sit and wimp about it. So what am i gonna do? I am gonna try to listen to my heart...lets see the future in a different angle may be.
Some say never let out your birthday wishes, before blewing off the candles on my cake...My wish is ...you know by now...